As I sit here writing, I can’t help but shed a few tears. Just last week, you may have read Jake’s post about the closure of our adoption agency. Last week was, without a doubt, one of the worst weeks of our lives. We’ve been on this incredibly long journey to meeting our little boy or girl, and to have that ripped out from underneath us, well it was excruciating. We had so many questions, and I was personally downright angry that this was happening after all the time & money we invested. The first couple days after that announcement, we were in a state of confusion. We prayed & prayed, asking for guidance. After much discussion, we knew our hearts were set on Ethiopia so we immediately began our search for a new agency. The week was filled with phone calls & research.
Crazy that was just last week, because SO much has changed since that last post! Right when we were getting ready to join a new agency, we received an email from our current agency with quite a surprise update. The email explained that they had found a way to remain open & continue our adoption. SAY WHAT!?? We were shocked. We had such a mixture of emotions, not sure what to think of this new announcement. Will this truly work? Could we gain our agency’s trust once again to carry out our adoption. Of course, we still had a lot of questions. For days, we continued praying, asking God to give us clarity & peace in whatever decision we made. And at church on Sunday, I had a realization. I (whitney) was trying to place all my trust in our agency, speculations from other waiting families, past adoptive families, etc. But what I realized is none of them can carry out this adoption for us. Sure, they may be facilitators or encouragers, but God is the only one who can lead us to our baby. Therefore, our full trust needs to be in Him. The other night, I feel like we were finally given the clarity we needed. Our agency provided us with specific details on how our adoption should unfold. This is what we needed. Answers. Answers so we could make an educated decision for the future of our family.
So what does this mean? Simply put, our adoption shouldn’t change at all. No money or time lost. Just a hiccup in the road, and we should be right where we left off before the original announcement. Are we celebrating, heck yes! We are thrilled! Are we still a little nervous? Of course. But it’s a great feeling to once again be feeling the excitement of waiting for our son or daughter.
Thank you for all of your prayers. It’s so amazing to have the support system we have. I can’t believe the outpouring of calls, texts, messages that came in after our last announcement. We love you guys! <3
Oh, and those tears I’m shedding, those are happy tears.
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